BeatrizAyra , 16 , calgary . loved and in love with a boy . One God . a traveller .
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BeatrizAyra , 16 , calgary . loved and in love with a boy . One God . a traveller .
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title: As of 11:00 my life is officially OVER. This chicken pox is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I told myself earlier, during the start of the second quarter that I was going to commit, commit to everything and make sure that I am über organized, that I don`t forget to study, I do all my homework, work undertime and still have time for relaxation, but the pox made every plan of mine go the opposite direction. My friends have told me, I missed out a lot. To start with; I have about five or so of quizzes, a ton of seatworks, massive homeworks and Chemistry. Oh boy, this quarter had to be the worst quarter, the one wherein it`s THE HARDEST. I have a lot of notes. Two oral recitations on poems longer than this blog and I don`t think I am going to be able to finish all of it by this coming week. I am already falling apart and then I have chemical formulas and writing equations to study, using only a notebook and book without a teacher explaining it to me further, because he said he doesn`t repeat. I also have a Chem project to think about which takes most of my grade oh and Chemistry has the biggest score on my whole academic grading list, it has 1.8 units. Who am I kidding, I am not the smartest kid in class, but i hope for it. I`ve been doing a lot of efforts to please my parents at my "Might-be-the-last-school year-here-in-the-Philly" and I want to change things, kinda like, have a better academic standing, I`m not saying I am stupid, but my academic is just average, at least I want it to be above average. But no, guess I won`t be able to do that. I`m already on a lot of pressure and I don`t want it to get worst. I would put my every dismissal hangout & have an overtime everyday and I really would want to go to class even on the weekends just so I can get myself back on track. This is really hard for me. And some would say, "Oh stop it, everybody can do that. Trust me.", well I am sorry, but i am not everybody. I really hope i can get back on track. I really do. Ohh, I forgot, Ia told me I have this book report on Wuthering Heights and it`s really hard balancing all that. I know I have friends to count on, but they have their own lives and academic standards to take care of and I am already thankful for their efforts to help me, really I do appreciate it, so thanks guys:) I am dying of tears right now. And I know as stupid as it may seem, I am really crying and it sucks. As much as possible I already want to leave and go to Canada. I need to live easier now. I feel like I am going to die because of all of this pressure. I really don`t want to fail and lose my academic reputation and go to summer school. I really need to pass, because if we (my family and I) don`t pass the Canada migration thing, I am toast. I don`t know where I would go next. I don`t want to find my butt on a "On Probation" by the Guidance department it`s the worst that could ever happen to me. And it probably will. |
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